burym4n

At this point, I'm aware that no one gives a shit and that my watchers don't care about my drama, so go ahead and ignore this if you feel like it's a waste of your time.

This has to be put out there, I've thought about it for a long while and it's been tearing at me, I've had so many interactions on this account and on my old account, I've had so many friendships created but then destroyed because of me but also because of the other person I made friends with..but they never want to admit what they did wrong..I keep saying I don't want to start drama and that I want to avoid causing anger but I end doing both of those things anyway when I never intended it in the first place. I know it's only my fault and that I have no one to blame but myself..I've become those people that I hate, I've become my own worst enemy. I started to vague people on my deviantart and tumblr by blaming them for my problems and say that it was their fault for not listening to me and trying to understand where I was coming from, I will be honest though some of them are pretty selfish fucking people who aren't honest about shit, but the fact of the matter is, I can't just crying wolf because when I actually want help and a friend I end up treating people like shit. People have always said that they wanted to be my friend and were willing to do anything for me out of their own gratitude, and I was very grateful for it, but then I get told that I was the one who used them and was the wrong doer in the first place..it just really started to urk me in the wrong way that it started to tear me down mentally and emotionally, this year I barely drew anything because I just felt drained and couldn't emotionally bring myself to do it, sure from time to time I was able to get a few sketches in here and there and some digital stuff but it still just wasn't there and I didn't know where to find it..but towards the end of this year I've been able to do some things with my characters and make a bio for at least one of them and the creative mindset was starting to come back to me again despite a lot of stress happening to me. 

Now let me get to the point 

I need to leave for a while..and I really don't know how long, my deviantart and tumblr have started to become very stressful places for me due to previous interactions with my past friends and I have been blocked by five people, and on deviantart if you get blocked by ten people your account will get banned, that could be wrong but either way I'm just frustrated..one person I recently told to unwatch me blocked me on here and apparently didn't trust me enough to not look at her page and blocked me for no reason, and even went as far as to block me on Skype AND Discord, and that's when I realized that I've had enough of this bullshit and really need to take a massive breather from this website..nothing but stress and drama and even people overreacting..I'm just tired of being treated like I'm dangerous..

This is in no way inconveniencing people and I'm thankful for that,no one wants to be my friend so nobody is waiting for me,and thank god, this life was just a fucking lie, all I wanted was for people to be honest but nobody did that with me even when things were great there was always something people were hiding for me. So now is the time for you guys to just be upfront and honest with me and reveal what you've been actually feeling if you want, I don't care either way, I'm done being yelled at, lied to, and even mocked for my efforts. I don't know if I will return or not, I may make a new account but i will have to think about it.

I just wish my name wasn't a curse and people liked saying it instead of talking about it in disgust.

www.battleforthenet.com/

This is very important!! Go to this website and let your representatives know that the internet needs to stay the way it is!

If anyone knows what I'm talking about.

Who gives a flying fuck? Like really? 

I'm not giving him my views.